I don't think my masking is quite as effective as I'd like it to be so I'm trying to work out where I'm going wrong and why my mask is too transparent
I am currently trying to pick myself back up again after my birthday weekend. Yes, amidst all the panic trying to organise my daughter's birthday (which isn't even until June), did I mention it was actually my birthday at the weekend? I didn't mention it because I don't really like birthdays. Not because I'm another … Continue reading Did I mention it was my birthday? No? Well here’s why!
I've realised this week that the topic of popularity still takes up far too much space in my unconscious mind. I say unconscious because I don't consciously aspire to it anymore, but the concept has resided in there for so long, shaping how I feel and behave, that it's hard to eradicate entirely. As a … Continue reading Doing the done thing
I think the dodgy news headline for this week's state of mind would most likely be: "Possibly autistic mother has panic trying to organise probably neurotypical daughter's birthday party." I think that sums it. My daughter turns 4 in two months and has decided she wants to throw a big birthday party inviting all her … Continue reading Possibly autistic mother has panic trying to organise probably neurotypical daughter’s birthday party
A few weeks ago I decided to get healthy and start taking better care of myself. It is something I really need to do, my diet is terrible and since my second child was born my weight has been slowly edging in the wrong direction - which I'm not used to after a lifetime of … Continue reading What happened when I decided to get healthy…
Why aren't my attempts at self-care working? Am I actually autistic or is it all in my head?
So the other day I talked about being on a mission to build my independence and resilience, to learn to stand on my own two feet. Well I have a plan. And I do love a good plan. My aim ultimately is to feel more comfortable being out in the real world by myself, to … Continue reading Resilience Training
I've had this friend since I was six years old, she was my first real friend. Before she turned up in my school in the final year of infants, I just used to run around with the boys on the school playground and had little to do with other girls, they were already playing mind-games … Continue reading Saying ta-ra
I took a week off work last week, I was supposed to see The Levellers play in Buxton but the gig got postponed and so instead I decided to push ahead and finish decorating my son's bedroom (see picture). It meant a week off where the kids still went to school and then Grandma's, and … Continue reading A mini break in oblivion
After my vent in the last post and feeling, well a bit rubbish in general, I decided I wanted to work out what I actually need to be happy in life, or what are the cornerstones to my own personal happiness. It feels like a useful exercise right now because I really don't want to … Continue reading The Cornerstones of Happiness